Monday, October 22, 2012

her wedding will not participate




8 and a half years and she knew it she and secondary students at that time ever thought and she come together, because she was totally not my favorite type, will think she is good stuffy, very quiet too refined, typical quiet little girls and her are ordinary friends, and the relationship between students get along, but do not know when she had a good impression, so she became my sister care found myself liking on her class from time to time to see her, and she smiled with his eyes, love to pass, but I know she does not like me, just think of me as the best friend she might feel I like her very deliberately avoided my I began to fall, walking corpses, in the semester of the second year, when she was transfer to the Jiujiang, and I cut off all contact. dragged me the Jiujiang friends each school to inquire about her whereabouts, the result was I found, but I did not dare to go to her first Jiujiang find her friends when it is a coincidence that she just back to Nanchang, the second time to find her when she went back to Nanchang, the third time to find her when I saw from a distance, she came by, but I avoid, because she said that since then did not want to see me again, I only looked at her secretly I've been waiting for her for four years, I've despair when I was family arrangements to go to Shenzhen to work, I think I will put her to forget, in Shenzhen, the new beginning of my life, where I'm promising, it was in March 2007, the married there! the 6th I and junior high school students after dinner, I chose to go home, go home, the first thing I go online found that the information she sent in is not asked me, I was surprised. although we have each other , but has not been spoken. piece of text to make myself not believe she sent in a one-hour chat, she said that she and I would like to be friends, I hope I can have a good future in Shenzhen. themselves and take care, heart rekindled her Heat but God's people get after us and a good week, I embarked on a train to Shenzhen and go into exile. every day we have contact in Shenzhen , text messages, phone calls and the May Day holiday, I came back, the first thing to look for her friend arranged for us to travel, go Meiling first and her most intimate contact, we slept in a sheets on the bed, and she slept in my arms, holding me, but we did nothing, so UGG Kids Classic Boots, after a night that night so I started very fond memories of her, I do not know my unrequited love, or she liked me at the end of June, one day, my mother and I quarrel alone back to Nanchang her very early to the train station to pick me up and I was very moved, under the train, we went directly to her house to sleep day, but I go to sleep. she was watching TV in the evening out with friends dined her back to her grandmother went home I slept a night in her home that night I do not know what I was thinking. 8:00 the next morning, she looked at her my heart is full of love boiling I suddenly hugged her and began to kiss, the first time I put my first kiss to her she is also my first kiss to. warm struggle, we gave each other the first time she was crying, saying that we should not be so, but the result really is has happened she was holding my neck and asked me: Do you love me? that moment I took four years for her to wait for her love Yiwuyishi accountable. moving to hold me, for a long time did not let go, I know I really know she loves me that night., our passion one night the next day his family to the recaptured Shenzhen. began our long love of Acacia Road. broke up she told me, very painful to feel this love I accepted after we are sick, lying in the hospital for a whole week. holding the phone, she was in here crying, I was over there crying and I know this love is really painful and I never realized Acacia let us next to taste. do not know what lovesickness, but this time I really appreciate the love will really make people rushed and I told her do not give up on me, you wait for me, I'll be back. she promised me, she said I had waited for her for four years, this is the punishment of God on her change her to wait for me and so the first half of the year, and I can really together and live we want to To life, talking we love her knitted scarf, she told me she was weaving a needle, silently in my heart will say I love you. six months after the January 1, 2008, her own baggage, returned to the home where I was born _ Nanchang start our new life I know love and career can not coexist, love and career must lose, like, I chose to love, because I know that I really so important back while looking for work, side talking of our love, that time I did not how much money, but she would be with me, we have seen two money movies, eat over a sesame seed. always so happy we like with the stars, snuggle, fantasy, our future life and her together, not bought precious gift, because she said I do not have the money, Do not be so wasteful, very happy as long as I do the dishes, eat on as soon as we have money, it will play video games, grasping her favorite doll, her happiest when I gave her caught her likes dolls, small, add up to a full 5 boxes, she said it was her happiest thing is and I together, living a simple life, enjoying the love I only gave her a I am fine, happy, work tired, but I fear nothing. although she is celibate women of wealthy families, but she does not expect to use their parents' money, and I remember she said that I had no car and no room Do not only, just tell me, is very happy for her, I must be a successful career. makes her very happy very happy life. love always come too fast, and soon lost .2009 years on April 8 UGG Jimmy Choo Siobhan Outlet, his family sent to the institutions work, and I know that my life began to have a new start, and I cherish the job, yet around her forgotten us one week to see once, but she did not blame me, always encouraged me, and everything will be fine, she get the family into the bank, we began to have a busy work less and less time to meet at the time of her sister introduced to know a new friend, he is very good, elite I began to fear that she will not shake this feeling, but she told me that she does not like him, because he never and I am better than, because I'm the best, but who can play by new feelings? him chasing her for quite some time, after six months, they are together and she began rarely give me a call, send messages, and I always felt that we started a little bit wrong, but she told me that they are not together, just a very ordinary friend, I believe, because love does her believe that she is not you? But something they would not want to so good in an indifference, she proposed a break up, I feel I can not give her happiness. everything so changed our feelings on this entry, destroy all I began to hate her, hate her, why do this to me? with her I refuse a lot of suitors, even the play do not have to deal with, Why would she do this to me? Is he really that good you? She said he resembled me, but there is no good to me, I will let her happy, but so what? She has tempted not it? Finally, she chose him, I lost love, first love, first abandoned by love, I began to feel fallen I started drinking , the drunk Xiongxiong daily drink then home, silly in bed crying, why she was so cruel to me, does she not know my love for her is so earnest, so carefully? I do not dare to face all this happened. never Whom paid obsessed over, even the tears are not for whom wept, but she is the love of my life is ruined, I no longer believe in love no longer who to believe. daily friend to open solution. But I still can not let go UGG Ascot, I knew I loved her, loved her more than yourself I actually have time to accept a person like me UGG Finnegan Boots, but I know it was impulsive UGG Sparkles I Do Boots, eventually rejected, I can not hurt others, because it is unfair to others, she asked me to her wedding will not participate, I told her that I would not participate, because I know how much I love you, you are reluctant to go to the wedding. Dec. 21, 2009, I put all my money bought her a necklace and a pair of earrings, I think she will always remember this love, she also gave me a watch, let this love to keep the night of December 31, 2009, plus finished classes taxi downstairs in her home UGG Delaine, she hopes to have her with me through the last few minutes of 2009, but to see her and He came huff, I said not to say the words she began to hate me, hate me forever and she told me that her New Year wishes, is from this and I hope to draw the line, the original after breaking up really can not be friends. That night I was her cruel Go away from losing everything, even the only good she would no longer accept I regret my impulse to regret my hyperemia, why can not calm it? now regrets what is the use? She said I forced her in unto them a personal oath of love, marriage, and I do not want their marriage, married people I can now tell me, we really finished, everything all end really can not do friends after breaking up, because the two sides hurt, but do not do the enemy, because loving each other too, so we become the most familiar stranger. I also pain long? can this feeling to let go, I do not know, I only know that I love her very much, always, always love her and I can not give someone else, and can only say I'm sorry for all the people, let me live to face all the pain. I love her, love her forever! (moving past stories)

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